Progress

At the beginning of this year, I decided to finally lose the weight that I gained from when I was pregnant with Kate (you know, three years ago!!).  I gained 80 lbs when I was pregnant with her.  I stopped eating healthy and exercising.  I also went through a really hard time with my mom passing; that honestly was when I started gaining lots of weight!  I never lost all of the weight after having her.  Then I got pregnant and weighed almost as much as I did when I was pregnant with Kate;  I think that the difference was 5 lbs. LOL.  Anyway, my biggest weakness is and always will be sweets!  I decided to not eat any desserts until I was back at my prepregnancy weight.  I had to post it on facebook because I knew that I wouldn't do it otherwise.  I am so proud to say that I have gone with no dessert for almost 6 six now.  I have lost 20 lbs.  I have less than 10 to go.  Yay!  I really want to lose a total of 20 more which makes me halfway.  I feel that I can be to my goal weight by summer.  It is a weight that I feel that I will be able to maintain and feel healthy.

I unpacked my clothes today that have been stored away for three years!  It was great to see them.  I feel like I went on a shopping spree.  I am just so proud of my progress.  I know that I still have a ways to go, but I am very proud of how far I've gone in just 6 weeks.  It has not been easy!  People always told me that the first two weeks would be the hardest.  That is such a lie!  It is hard every day!!  I really thought it would get easier but it hasn't.  Seeing my clothes today and the fact that I could fit in a lot of them, really excited me!

Here is a picture of me when Kate was about a month old and a picture of me today.

Some favorites!

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE being home with my children.  Moms out there that get to stay home with their children are definitely the luckiest!  Anyway, I am off track right now so I get to be with my children all day.  One of my favorite things is nap time.  I don't ever get to take time for myself.  I don't get time at night because by the time I put the kids to bed, I'm ready to go to bed too.  I have decided to use today's nap time to write a blog.  I know; I know.  It is weird of me to not be cleaning, organizing, or finding something else to work on in the house.  I decided just to post some of my favorite pictures and say why I love them. Here we go!

This photo makes me laugh so hard.  I think that Eric is a natural model. LOL!

Kate has always had a baby face.  This photo just shows how much she looks like a doll and how much she loves dolls!

Kate was so excited to meet Eric.  You can see in her sweet face that she loved Eric right away!

It is crazy to think that Kate was ever this little!!  She wore mittens for a long time because I was afraid to cute her fingernails.

 Eric was quite a chubby little boy when he was born.  It is crazy to think that he is in the 10th percentile for his weight right now.

 I just love this photo of Jordan and I.  I think that we both look good in this photo.  This photo is from Thanksgiving; the day that we found out that we were pregnant with Eric.  Maybe that is why I think that we look good because we are glowing ;)

LOL!!  Kate's face in this photo!!!  It is hard to tell, but she loved this bath.  She has and still does love everything about water!!!

Disneyland! Disneyland! Disneyland!!  Think of your favorite place in the entire world.  Think of how much you love that place.  Now times that love by a billion, and you have how much I love Disneyland.  I want to go back so bad right now.  I wish that we were rich or had some rich friends or something.  I wish that we could go right now since I'm off track.  I would love to go there a couple of days with just me and Jordan.  Then I would want someone to meet us with our kids so we could go another day or two as a family.  Kate loved it so much in this picture and she was only a year old.  She will love it so much more now that she knows more.  One day I'll go back.  I can't wait for that day!!

This photo doesn't even look like Kate.  She would make this face every so often.  I think it is super cute.  I picked this picture because I LOVED this dress.  She didn't get to wear it much at all.  It was one of my favorites!

 

I love this photo for two obvious reasons!  It is so funny that I took a screenshot right when Jordan sent me that lovely text. LOL.  I also love it because Kate looks super cute posing for the picture.  She is a hard one to get to pose for pictures!. 

 

I guess that is it for now.  There are definitely a lot more photos that I love.  Those are just a small amount.

Love lasts Forever!

I don't know if you know this about me, but one of my biggest fears was getting married.  Growing up, I saw a lot of failed marriages.  I saw people who once loved each other turn on each other with hatred. I have seen people yell and scream horrible things at each other. I have (sadly) even seen people turn violent. I decided when I was younger, that I would never settle and that I would totally be fine never marrying someone.  I have seen enough broken hearts and loss in my life.  Then I met Jordan!!
Now our love wasn't at first sight.  It was far from that for me.  Jordan definitely fell for me faster than I fell for him.  I needed that though because I wanted to make sure that I was actually in love and that it wasn't infatuation.  I found myself telling Jordan everything about my life, the good and the bad.  I found myself missing him the moment that we were apart.  I found myself getting nervous that Jordan would find someone better and leave me.  I found myself in love!
Our marriage has not been without trials, but we haven't ever had a huge fight.  This is because we try to see each other's perspectives.  We also communicate with each other.  We try to not be selfish and put each other in front of our own needs; Jordan does this way better than me!!
Anyway, I just found out a week ago that my best friend is divorcing her husband.  They have been married for 10 years (I think).  It has been so hard for me this week to have this in my life again.  I know that it is the best for them, but it is sad to hear about the things that my friend has gone through. It is sad that someone she once loved and he once loved her has put her through this!  Now she isn't necessarily innocent in all of this, but it is so sad to see.  I don't get how people can fall out of love with each other.
I am so grateful for Jordan.  I am grateful that I don't have to worry about divorce.  I know that we will ALWAYS be there for each other and for our kids.  He is a great father and an amazing husband.  I hope one day that I can make him feel like the way he makes me feel.  I love him and this love WILL last forever!!!!