First week of summer

It is crazy to think that I've only been out of school for one week. I've done a lot this week so it feels like I've been out longer. It has been a great week! I love spending time with Kate!!! It is nice to be home with her. It's sad and exciting that this is my last break with just Kate. I'm going to try to make the most of it. I know that I'm 32 weeks pregnant, but I'm not going to let that stop my fun with Kate.

Monday was the best day to start my summer! Jordan was home!!!! We had Leo with us that day. Kate was super excited when she woke up and saw that he was here. It actually scared him. He stared crying. 😂 She was just excited to have someone to play with.  Kate and Leo played together all morning. Then we went to the doctor's office for my checkup. Jordan was kind enough to stay in the play area with the two kids. I felt bad that he didn't get to see Eric. He hasn't been able to for a few appointments now. Hopefully he will be able to go in for our next checkup. Eric looked great. He is already four pounds. I realize it is just a guess, but I think that their guess is right. My guess is that he will be bigger than Kate. We will see in a couple of months!! After the appointment, we went shopping with the two kids. Leo is great in the store! Kate loved having someone next to her.

Tuesday and Wednesady I watched Leo and Kate by myself. We had so much fun. I even went on a few walks with them. I looked crazy as I pushed Kate on her bike and carried Leo on my back. Leo did really well on my back. I'm sure it wasn't super fun for him. We played out in the front yard lots too. I can't wait to have a backyard!! Maybe next summer! We went to the park with some families in my ward. That was a lot of fun. The other kids played with Kate and Leo really well!

Thursday was a lot of fun! I got Kate all to myself! We went to my friend's house and played with her two girls. They both love Kate. Kate enjoyed going to someone else's house. New toys are definitely the best. Kate and I spent the rest of the day together. She followed me everywhere. She even brought toys into the bathroom while I was in there. It is going to be so hard to go back to work!! Luckily that isn't for a long time! I do feel bad for Jordan though. Kate is growing very attached to me so she doesn't want Jordan right away. She does warm up to him, but it takes like an hour.

Friday was super crazy! I had Leo again which Kate loved. I made two desserts that I hadn't ever made before. Both turned out ok but neither were amazing. Then I cleaned my entire house and finished my quilt. This was my third quilt, but my first one all on my own. I love how it turned out! The plan is for it to go on my bed. On Saturday, we went to Lauren's bridal shower. Kate loved playing with more cousins!! It was a lot of fun celebrating with the family. I'm so excited for Lauren and Carter.  I can't wait for later today. It will be fun to spend some time with Hilary's family. I hope that we get to spend lots of time while she is here. I want Kate to get to know all of her cousins! 

My 2 Loves

I must say that I'm the luckiest person in the world!! I have two great people in my life that love me no matter what. I am definitely not the easiest person to live with, yet these two love me. Jordan is so sweet to me. He supports me and helps me through everything. I don't know how I ever lived without him. Then there is Kate. She makes any bad day better. She is so much fun. It has been a blast to see her little personality.

Here are a few pictures that describe my two loves:

Poor Jordan had to fix our dryer. He was great during it. It was quite the process and took about a month to finally fix it all the way. He was consistently staying up super late to fix it, running to Home Depot, and staying patient during the entire process. Kate sure loved trying to help when she could!

This picture sums them up perfectly 😂😂😂 Kate is super cute and is willing to pose for the camera while Jordan sends me a text about really needing to poop! 😂😂😂

This one was just taken today. Kate had kind of a rough night. She was just super tired. She fell down the stairs. I saw the entire thing happen and didn't catch her in time. I think I was more upset about it then Kate. Jordan could tell that I was struggling with it, so he took Kate and started playing with Snapchat. Kate loves that app. Later I noticed a snap on my phone. Jordan sent me this photo; he knew it would make me smile. I sure do love these two!!

Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

I miss you so much!! I wish that you didn't have to leave this earthly world as soon as you did. I still have so much to learn from you. I especially need your help with parenting. You were a great mom. You always played with us and knew when we needed to talk. You were so much fun even when we were hard teenagers.  You gave everything you had to us. You ALWAYS put your children before you! Thanks! I love you so much!
The hardest thing is not having you here to be a grandma for my children. I feel cheated. You only knew that I was pregnant. I didn't get your help with being a new mom; I definitely struggled with that. Kate is great. You would have loved her. She gives great kisses and hugs. You would have loved her laugh the most.
Well, I'm pregnant again. We are having a boy this time. I hope that you are playing with Baby Eric right now. I hope that you are giving him pointers since you can't do it while he is here. I'm nervous to try and raise two kids. It is going to be hard to make them both feel loved equally. I wish that you were here to help me transition into a family of four.
I guess that is it. I hope you know that I miss you so much and that this time of year is super hard for me. I thought that it would get easier, but it hasn't. I just keep thinking of all the things you are missing in my life and all of the memories that we could be having. I guess I'm just making it hard. Anyway, I just want you to know that I love you so much. I know how much you loved me too. I know this now since I'm a mom. A mother's love is so much more than I could ever imagine!

Love you,
Lindsey