Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

I miss you so much!! I wish that you didn't have to leave this earthly world as soon as you did. I still have so much to learn from you. I especially need your help with parenting. You were a great mom. You always played with us and knew when we needed to talk. You were so much fun even when we were hard teenagers.  You gave everything you had to us. You ALWAYS put your children before you! Thanks! I love you so much!
The hardest thing is not having you here to be a grandma for my children. I feel cheated. You only knew that I was pregnant. I didn't get your help with being a new mom; I definitely struggled with that. Kate is great. You would have loved her. She gives great kisses and hugs. You would have loved her laugh the most.
Well, I'm pregnant again. We are having a boy this time. I hope that you are playing with Baby Eric right now. I hope that you are giving him pointers since you can't do it while he is here. I'm nervous to try and raise two kids. It is going to be hard to make them both feel loved equally. I wish that you were here to help me transition into a family of four.
I guess that is it. I hope you know that I miss you so much and that this time of year is super hard for me. I thought that it would get easier, but it hasn't. I just keep thinking of all the things you are missing in my life and all of the memories that we could be having. I guess I'm just making it hard. Anyway, I just want you to know that I love you so much. I know how much you loved me too. I know this now since I'm a mom. A mother's love is so much more than I could ever imagine!

Love you,
Lindsey